I’m going to pretend that there are oodles of people who just cheered when they saw I had a new blog post. That I have a million adoring fans who wondered what I’d been up to, and got incredibly excited when they noticed this pop up in their Facebook Newsfeed. In reality, it may just be my son cheering…but for that, I’m grateful as it means my back is had by a guy who writes for love himself! One who knows how much this blog has meant to me…and how much I’ve missed it. So I have to thank my boy for reminding me that I had a passion just waiting for me to find it again.
Okay, enough with the amateur dramatics. I really have missed you.
I am feeling much better, and more like myself. I have bad days, and a few horrible ones, but they have become less frequent and a little easier for me to manage. Some of the things I complained about in my adios post have become such a regular part of my life that I don't notice them as much anymore (I’m talking to you, tingly extremities and tinnitus!). It's hard to explain how grateful I am for that!
I’ve wanted to get back writing and making videos again, but some things have changed that might make all of this a little more difficult. For one, my confidence has really taken a beating. I mean, it’s got a little scary, as someone who has struggled my entire life to feel empowered to make cool decisions. But between the exhaustion, niggling worries in the back of my head, and the weight I’ve gained back while finding my new normal, I’ve lost the woman who didn't hesitate to film her make up tutorials and YouTube videos. I’ve gone back and watched, and I feel like a different person.
But I’m sick of being sick. Sick of putting my life and dreams on hold. Sick of having ideas, and yet never moving forward with them. So here I am!!
I have been reading, although probably not at the speed I was previously, so I need to catch y'all up on my book thoughts! I will probably do one post with some summaries, but I have a couple books that NEED a full review. So expect those in the future.
PLUS, I have a lot of small bits and pieces floating around in the back of my head that need to see the light of day. I’m eager to do more videos, but I may just stick to Facebook since that’s where y'all seem to be!
I hope that this post finds everyone happy and healthy, ready for the season to change, and new and exciting events to happen. Please leave me a comment to let me know you’re still here…and if there’s anything you’d like to hear from me in the future!
Couldn’t thank y'all enough…